Ugh. Clowns.

It’s Christmas Eve and I ought to have upbeat Christmas songs stuck in my head, but what do I have instead?

“Send in the Clowns”

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Computers, the Past, and the Future

Dear Kids,

I think I spend too much time on the computer. I think you think that, too. You will probably have memories of me ignoring you in favor of my computer, just as I have memories of my mother ignoring me in favor of her books. That makes me sad.

On the other hand, I feel like I haven’t captured enough stories about you on my blog. Just recently I came across an old post from Christmas 2011. It brings back such wonderful memories. I wish I had a Christmas post for every year. I don’t, though, and never will, because I didn’t find the time to write the stories down. That makes me sad, too.

So, for 2017 I will try to use the computer more wisely by spending less time on Facebook and more time on writing.

In the meantime let’s look at that Christmas 2011 post. It never made it into a photo album. I will put it into the 2016 album so that we can see how much you’ve changed over the past five years.

CHRISTMAS 2011

Christmas 2011 was Livia’s first Christmas and Marshall’s third.

We talked to Marshall about Santa Claus many times in the weeks approaching Christmas, and he learned to recognize the fat man in the red, fur-lined coat, but he still didn’t quite get the whole idea of what Christmas and Santa mean. He grasped the idea of gifts, though. As we were coming down the stairs Christmas Eve, he saw one of the presents his dad was taking out to the car and he said, “Present! Downstairs!” He was very excited.

Having mastered the art of opening gifts at his last birthday party, he eagerly tore into the pile of Christmas gifts at his vovó’s house. He got so good at it that he started opening everyone else’s gifts, too, like Vovó’s nightgowns. He was quite glad to unwrap Livia’s gifts, as well. I noticed, though, that as soon as he saw that a gift contained clothing, he would toss the clothes into the air and move on to the next thing.

Marshall ate all the butterfly-shaped crackers on the cheese-and-cracker plate. Then he asked for another butterfly, and everyone said, “Oh, he said ‘butterfly!’ How cute!” His dad told me about this later and he seemed disgusted. He said, “It wasn’t cute. He was just trying to get another cracker out of them!” It was cute, I think, but yeah, he was totally working an angle.

Marshall got a set of toy Black & Decker tools. They are impressively realistic and sturdy. Both kids were totally engrossed by them and we had silence in the house for at least half an hour Christmas morning. That makes those plastic toys worth their weight in gold!

Livia couldn’t resist the snowflake ornaments on the tree. By the time we were done opening presents on Christmas day, she had removed all of the ones that she could reach. She’d grab a snowflake, ball it up in one of her moist little hands, then run around until someone took it away from her.

I’m so glad that we have these stories from 2011. I hope we’ll have lots of great stories from 2017, too!

Love,

Mom

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Here Comes Christmas

Dear Kids,

Christmas always sneaks up on me. No matter how much Christmas prep I think I’ve done before and right after Thanksgiving, it’s never enough. Come December, every day brings new tasks that must be done or else the whole holiday will be jeopardized. Or so it feels, anyway. And the time passes faster and faster the closer we get to December 25, as if the holiday is so massive that it pulls everything toward it, like a black hole.

With time flying by like that, the only thing I can do is hang on for the ride and focus on the priorities. I’m a slow mover and often grumpy and tired. I know I’m not going to get everything done, so I try to stay focused on the most critical things, like the Christmas tree. The decorated tree is what officially signals that Christmas is coming, and it’s only after the tree goes up that our elf, Charley, arrives. This is one Christmas task that we must always do, and the earlier the better.

This year your Daddy brought home a beautiful tree, and then you and I decorated it. You were both so eager to hang the ornaments that you weren’t as careful as I kept urging you to be, and a glass butterfly ornament got broken. I yelled, but only because you were both barefoot, and I didn’t want you near the broken glass. It was OK, though. Sometimes things break, and then we have to let them go. But you know what’s great? We always get a few new ornaments each year, so will never run out. We’re also collecting happy memories along the way, and that’s even more important.

We added something extra to the run-up to Christmas this year: an Advent calendar. Your Grammie had wanted to buy you one, and I said I liked the ones with the little drawers. Little did I know how much extra trouble I’d be creating for myself! The calendar is shaped like a gingerbread house, and it’s adorable, but the drawers are tiny. I went to the store and bought some very small presents (stickers, balloons, etc.) to go in it, but even those turned out to be too big. So I needed another solution, and I found two. It occurred to me that paper notes could be folded to fit in there. So, for some days I created treasure hunt clues to lead you to your presents. On other days I gave you “Magic Christmas Tickets” that were good for an extra treat, an extra book at bedtime, or a half hour of coding time on Mommy’s computer. The biggest hit was the extra treat ticket, but you really liked the treasure hunts, too.  I think I’ll be able to do a much better job of it next year. Your father wants to get in on the action, too, so expect to see some Magic Christmas Tickets that entitle you to spend extra time with Daddy!

Your father and I also got an extra pre-Christmas treat this year, because Marshall’s school put on a musical Christmas show. Marshall and his classmates sang some great holiday songs. We enjoyed the show, and we were so proud of him. We waited outside the gym afterward so we could each give him a big hug before he went back to class.

Your father says that I shouldn’t compare Christmas to a black hole, because it sounds too negative. I suppose he has a point. The thing is, Christmas can be tough sometimes. Many people get stressed and/or depressed around the holiday. But however hard the gravity of Christmas may pull you down, always remember that the bottom of the “black hole” is filled with presents, twinkly lights, cookies, carols, and good cheer. That will always be true as long as you let Christmas live in your heart. I hope you always will.

Love,

Mom

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Oopsie

OK, so I didn’t get quite as much done as I had hoped. But I watched two Christmas movies, and I remembered the gift for the kids’ Advent calendar.

Oh, and I ate kale. On purpose!

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To Do Today

My goals for today are simple.

  1. Sleep in (mission accomplished!)
  2. Solve the Saturday crossword puzzle (mission accomplished! It took about an hour, as did Friday’s puzzle.)
  3. Solve the Sunday crossword puzzle (done!)
  4. Shop for additional decoration needs, such as gold string for the ornaments that have lost their hangers, and a wreath hook with which to hang the pretty wreath that I bought on sale after Christmas last year.
  5. Hang lights along the stairs
  6. Decorate the dining room
  7. Make a list of presents to buy
  8. Make a list of people to send Christmas cards to
  9. Make board for hanging Christmas cards on (done, with Livia’s very enthusiastic help!)
  10. Cleaning
  11. Laundry (done!)
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Waiting and Waiting

A little over a week ago I sent a short story to be critiqued by an author acquaintance of mine. I checked my e-mail every day, eager to see her response, but as of yesterday I hadn’t heard anything from her except a confirmation that she had received payment. I was starting to think about contacting her again, but I was nervous. What if the reason I hadn’t heard from her was that my story was so bad that she didn’t even know where to begin? It’s funny how the mind works.

Anyway, come to find out, she never even received the story. I don’t know what went wrong with the e-mail. There’s a copy of it in my sent folder. But somehow it just didn’t get there. So I sent it again last night, and thanks to the immediacy of IM, I know for sure that she has it.

Now the waiting begins again.

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Beyond Reason

Listen, I like concerts, but ticket prices have gotten out of hand. I was just shopping for tickets to see Tom Petty in Hartford, and they wanted close to $350 for two tickets plus fees. These were no-frills seats, not in the front rows or anywhere near. Factor in the gas to get there, the parking fees, plus the cost of the meal we’d need to eat while we were out, and we’re talking about a very pricey evening. I consulted with my hubby, and we agreed that we had to pass, just as we had to pass on Coldplay tickets earlier this year.

I realize that artists need to make money on their shows, especially since they’re being squeezed on sales of their songs. I get it. But they won’t be making that money off of me, because I just can’t justify the expense!

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“Dispatched”

I ordered something from Amazon.co.uk. They sent me an e-mail to let me know that my item had been dispatched. Hooray! I know it’s silly, but I think “dispatched” sounds more interesting and full of promise than “shipped.”

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Resistance Is Futile

One by one, however slowly and painfully, the Christmas tasks get done.

I have a niece who is still very young, and every year I buy her a personalized Christmas ornament. Etsy is my go-to source for these ornaments, and I’ve been happy with every one I’ve ever purchased. Usually the shopping itself is an enjoyable experience, and I find a dozen potential ornaments almost immediately. So usually I’d say that Etsy is awesome for that kind of thing.

But not so much this year. I had to wade extremely deep into the search results to find even one that I liked. It was cute, though. It had a picture of a girl elf on it, and it came with the option to personalize her appearance (hair, glasses, clothes, etc.). I spent a fair amount of time deciding on those features and selecting the perfect font. I put the finished ornament in my cart, and BAM! Etsy hit me with a message saying that the seller was on vacation so the ornament wasn’t available. Ugh. Why didn’t they tell me that upfront?

I am starting to feel like every Christmas task is resisting me this year, but that resistance is futile. I will not be deterred! I went back to Etsy last night and found another ornament. It is also cute (with a snowman on it), and it should arrive on time.

So put a check mark next to “Niece’s ornament” on my to-do list!

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Making Progress

One by one the Christmas tasks get done.

I picked up our Christmas cards today. What a relief it is to have this particular task done! I had the usual problems designing them. First I couldn’t find the right pictures. Then I designed a perfect card, only to find out that it might not ship in time. So then I had to design another card at different website so that I could pick the cards up myself. But I’m happy with the results (and the price, which turned out to be a heck of a lot cheaper than my first design!).

So put a check mark next to “Christmas card” on my to-do list!

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