2024 in Review

I spent the tail end of New Year’s Eve in the usual way: with my family, watching a TV broadcast of the ball dropping in Times Square. As the people in the crowd chanted the countdown (“ten, nine, eight, . . .”), I felt strangely dislocated from time, because how could it be the end of the year already. Hadn’t we just started it?

Each new year feels more that way as I get older. My blog usually helps with that, letting me see each year in retrospect as a connected series of stories, rather than a puddle of mixed-up half-memories, random and detached from the calendar. Regretfully, I didn’t blog much in 2024, so the year will always be more muddled in my memory. But, I suppose the scarcity of posts for the year makes each one more precious. Let’s review the highlights and talk about what’s happened since, shall we?

January: 17 posts (the most I wrote for any month of 2024)

  • I posted about my daily puzzling habit. Since then, I quit my NYT subscription, and I only do the puzzles on the website that are free, so no more Spelling Bee for me. My mom later gave me a Spelling Bee mug for Christmas, which would seem like an ill-fitting present were it not that I now solve the puzzle’s twin (Word Flower) over at the Boston Globe, and I still feel like I’m solving the Spelling Bee daily.
  • I also posted about my knee. The cortisone shot lasted for several months. Now, the knee is a little stiff and sometimes painful, but not so bad that I need to get another shot. I hope to delay getting more shots for as long as possible. I suspect that they will get less efficacious the more I get of them, and I want to save them as a last resort.

February: 12 posts

  • I wrote a post in which I mentioned Livia’s puzzle-solving abilities. During 2024, she became an ardent puzzler, tackling many of the NYT puzzles daily, as well as the Octordle. She can solve them on her own, and sometimes does, but she’s just as likely to solve them with me or her Dad, who is now also a puzzler (OMG, what? I did not see that coming!).
  • We got an air fryer/toaster oven. As a toaster, it’s a mixed bag. It makes great toast, but it takes forever. Consequently, we weren’t able to get rid of the actual toaster, which was part of our plan for clearing clutter from the kitchen counters. The kids don’t have a lot of time in the morning when they’re getting ready for school, so they need a quick toaster. But we find the oven incredibly helpful when we need to make toast for the entire family, because it can handle up to 9 slices at a time. As an air fryer, I’m not sure it’s much better than a regular oven, but it did get us to try a bunch of new recipes, some of which (such as the fajita recipe) were keepers. As a toaster oven, it’s useful for reheating food that would get destroyed by the microwave. All things considered, it was a good purchase.
  • In a post that is now private, I wrote about the ridiculous “bait-and-switch” bill that I got for my cortisone shot. I never paid the bill. I haven’t heard from the collections agency in a while. I’m unsure whether they’ve decided to let it go or are working on another way to pursue me. I can only hope that 2025 will have no unpleasant billing surprises.

March: 14 posts

As mentioned above, some posts that were once viewable by the general public are now private. In most cases, that’s because the post contained political commentary, and I’ve since decided to keep such posts private. For March, I want to highlight a quote from one such post. I wrote, “Dwelling on the big messes that I canโ€™t control makes little sense when there are smaller messes all around me that I could control if I so chose. Perspective.” That’s exactly the mindset I need right now. I should focus more on what’s going on in my daily life and less on whatever the fuck the world is doing, because I can’t control the world or even handle its insanity right now.

April: No posts

I don’t remember April at all. I can only assume that the lack of posts was caused by the lack of sleep.

May: 2 posts

OMG, was I was in sorry shape in May, as I explained in this post: Gotta Go With What You’ve Got. Sleep-deprivation is terrible and dangerous and I wouldn’t wish it on anyone ever.

June: 12 posts

  • Though I didn’t mention it on the blog until July, I joined the YMCA so that the kids could take swim lessons. The kids enjoyed the lessons, but the Y didn’t have any openings in the next-level class, so they couldn’t continue. Meanwhile, I couldn’t justify the expense of the memberships while waiting for spaces to open up in the class, so I decided to cancel. The Y makes it hard to do so, though, and I ended up having to pay for a whole extra month. Due to these and other assorted issues, the experience ultimately left a bad taste in my mouth, and I’m unlikely to join the Y again, but I hope the kids will at least remember the swim lessons fondly.
  • Other odds and ends from June: the kids (especially Marshall) were thoroughly sick of school and I was at the end of my rope. I don’t know how we made it through, but we did. I’d lost patience with people, resolving that my new default for climate-change questioners/deniers would be “Are you a fucking moron?” I haven’t been called upon to use it, but I have no doubt that the time will come. In music, I was working on a dissonant 4-part 6-tone piece, which my teacher liked. I’ve since started a second one but haven’t made as much progress as I’d like, largely because I had writer’s block (composer’s block?) for many weeks in late 2024.

July: 8 posts

July was mostly about work. After apparently tempting the evil genies in June by saying I was sick of my job, in July I learned that I might indeed lose my job. I haven’t, at least not yet, and I’m relieved. But, I’m pissed at my employers for the way they handled the situation. I get that they needed to reduce costs. But, they didn’t have to be so cruel, making us live with the fear of job-loss for months and then axing people right before the holidays.

August: 3 posts

I wrote about planning to go to Great Wolf Lodge. I had had high hopes for that trip, but it didn’t turn out very well. First, it got postponed. Then, when we finally did go, there was a lack of enthusiasm that was not helped by the fact that the place was both packed with visitors and freezing cold. I’d call it a big waste of money except that we had some family time, which is priceless. I was still sleeping poorly in August and finally tried melatonin (it didn’t work and it had unpleasant side-effects. Ugh.).

September: 3 posts

I wrote a little bit, in a post that is now private, about the upcoming election and my trip to CT to visit with my friend (we got totally soaked–not the first time that has happened to us, and probably not the last!). I started my music lessons back up after having taken a much-needed break during the summer. I had a good birthday.

October: no posts

What was happening in October? I can’t recall. I know that I was struggling to find books to suit my mood, and at some point I stopped finishing the books I’d started. I kept trying to read, switching from one book to another, hoping to find one that could hold my interest, but I met with little luck. I am only just now starting to get my reading mojo back. Halloween, which is usually the highlight of the year, was a letdown. Marshall didn’t want to dress up, and Natalie had made other plans for Arianna without telling us in advance, so it was just me, Livia, and my hubby who went trick-or-treating. We didn’t even visit the kids’ vovos. The vovos are getting old (my MIL is 90!). They don’t get out much anymore, and we see them less often, which is sad. In December, they didn’t go to the Christmas Eve get-together at my SIL’s house, and their absence was a drag on the evening.

November: 6 posts

The big thing that happened in November was the election, of course, and I mentioned my subsequent reactions to it. The biggest reaction was that I quit social media. My Facebook and Twitter accounts are now gone, assuming they were deleted as promised. I’m somehow still on Instagram, apparently, as I continue to get e-mails from that site. I’ll have to go delete that one at some point. The loss of social media didn’t hurt as much as I’d feared. It was tough for a week or so, and then suddenly it wasn’t.

December: 3 posts

I didn’t write much, so I’ll just give a quick recap now.

  • The writer’s block that had kept me from composing finally eased a bit, which was a relief.
  • I fell behind on almost all Christmas prep. I didn’t even decorate the tree or wrap any presents until Christmas Eve. Thank goodness for cheatah bags! (I may write separately about cheatah bags later, but for now, I’ll just say that those cloth drawstring bags in Christmassy colors were a real life-saver that night).
  • The jelly Advent Calendar that I bought for my husband was a big hit with the entire family, though technically we still haven’t finished the last few days of it because we were so busy then with other things. The jams will still be just as tasty when we get around to them, I’m sure.
  • In preparation for my parents’ visit, we cleaned the house as much as possible. It’s nicer now, and we got to use our dining-room table for the first time. Same as last year, once there was a table available, we wanted to put a jigsaw puzzle on it. My husband selected the puzzle, and OMG it turned out to be the Garbage Pail Kids. What a blast from the past! My husband hid the cover of the box, so solving the puzzle has been challenging. We’re still working on it.
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12/14/2024

  • I had fallen a day behind on the Advent Calendar, for which I felt really bad. To make up for it, today I made tickets to cover every day through Tuesday. Now, with just a week of tickets left to do, I can finally see the Christmas lights at the end of the tunnel. Whew!
  • Don’t you hate it when you receive a shipping box marked “Do No Open With a Sharp Instrument” but it’s so thoroughly webbed in tape that you have no choice but to use a sharp instrument to open it? Like really, how do the shipers think you’re going to manage it?
  • I was doing some Christmas shopping on my computer today. I had dozens of tabs open in my web browser. I took a short break to go to the grocery store. When I got back, Windows had done an update and all my tabs were gone. Hours of shopping down the tubes. ๐Ÿ™
  • Also this week, after making hundreds of edits to the word list in my crossword generation program, the program spontaneously deleted over 15,000 words. There was no way to get them back. I had to revert to an older version of the list. Losing hundreds of edits hurt, but it was preferable to losing thousands of words.
  • The other day I wrote down something funny that Livia said. I don’t remember where I wrote it down, though, and now I can’t find it. Frustrating. I guess it was just that kind of week.
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Thank God for Puzzles

My hearing is not so great. Yesterday I was in the kitchen while that popular Shaboozey song was playing on the radio in the living room. The chorus sounded like “Everybody at a park in Texas” or “Everybody had a parking ticket.” That bit of the song got stuck in my head, playing over and over, and it was super irritating not knowing the actual lyrics. I didn’t know who the singer was, so I couldn’t easily look the song up. The words might have remained a mystery forever had the NYT Mini not referenced the song today. Thank God for puzzles!

P.S. It’s “Everybody at the bar getting tipsy.”

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12/21/2024

  • I tried listening to The Nutcracker Suite on YouTube the other day, but there were all these weird, nonrhythmic beats that were driving me nuts. Turns out it was a live recording of the ballet. All those little thuds were the dancers’ feet hitting the stage. How dare they spoil the music that way! ๐Ÿ˜‰
  • At Thanksgiving, it seemed like every conversation wanted to veer off in a political direction, but we steered clear somehow. The only topic we didn’t manage to avoid was Covid, but it’s a tough one to avoid, given that it’s cold season.
  • I have too much stuff in my closet, and I’d like to get rid of some things, but I can’t. Take the crutches, for example. I don’t want them, and I don’t need them. But, my husband and I have both noticed a sad truth about life: if you keep something for a long time and then give it away, you’ll need it soon after. So, I must keep the crutches forever to ensure that I’ll never need them. <sigh>
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11/16/2024

I hate to say it, but I may need to bring back the Daily Minimum. The Daily Minimum was a short list of tasks that I forced myself do every day during the early stages of the Pandemic. It helped me stay on a more even keel emotionally, to get more exercise, and to better keep up with certain ongoing chores, such as laundry. Right now I could definitely use some help in those departments.

The problem with the Daily Minimum was that it was too, well, minimal. That was actually both its greatest strength (because it wasn’t hard to accomplish) and its greatest flaw (because it didn’t lead to any great accomplishment). I could have added more tasks to the daily list, but resisted, fearing that I might accidentally make it onerous and hard to keep track of.

If I decide to bring the Daily Minimum back, I’ll have to add some tasks to it. But they’ll have to be things that are eminently doable and low-stress and that also provide a lot of bang for the buck. And maybe I should create two different lists: one for workdays and one for weekends. I’m not sure what would be best. I’ll be thinking about this more during the coming week.

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Mid-November Musings

  • Today I got an e-mail saying that my jury duty has been canceled. Excellent news! I’ve managed to avoid jury duty my entire life so far. Do you think Fate will punish me someday by putting me on the jury of one of those awful weeks-long trials? Seems likely, but until then, hooray!
  • What I resent most right now is how everyone’s acting as if what’s happening in America is perfectly normal. We veered past normal years ago and have been driving deep into a bizarro version of reality, but you’d hardly know it sometimes from reading the news. (Speaking of the news, I’m now a reader of The Boston Globe. They offered me digital access for 26 weeks at $1. How could I say no to that?)
  • I’ve been listening to Stravinsky’s The Rite of Spring on YouTube. The video is great. So are the comments on it. I recommend both.
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Reactions and Plans

  • I deactivated my Twitter account today. If I don’t reactivate it within 30 days, it will be permanently deleted, and permanent deletion is the goal. I also posted a good-bye message on Facebook, and I’ll be deactivating that account shortly. Last week, I’d thought I’d wait until closer to the end of the year to delete my social media. I expedited the change because I was wallowing too much. A little wallowing was called for, but there are limits, and I have better things to do.
  • My WaPo subscription will end tomorrow, and I canceled the NYT a while ago. So, I’m pretty much without a dependable news source. That’s fine for now. I don’t want to dwell on the news anyway. I’m planning to read through just enough of the headlines each day to get a broad understanding of current events without getting caught up in the details or getting upset about them. That’s how I got through the end of the previous shit-show, and I hope it will work again. My only regret is that I’m not supporting any journalists. I will look for ways to do that next year.
  • I’ve decided not to cut ties with friends and family whose politics disagree with my own. When spending time with these people, I probably won’t deliberately introduce any political topics. But I also won’t shy away from them. If the subjects arise, I’m going to say what I think, and I’m not going to worry too much about anybody’s fee-fees. I’m not going to be rude (I hope), but I’m also not going to coddle anyone’s ego. The time for coddling is over. The time for raw truth has come.
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Emotions

So many emotions to process. Yesterday was sadness. Today is anger. Now I’m starting to get a terrible feeling in my gut, the beginnings of anxiety. All normal feelings, none fun. But I hope that soon I’ll be able to get past those and settle on that particular form of low, simmering anger that is so good for driving me forward in a positive direction.

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Am I Going to Cry?

Am I going to cry today? I’ve got tears in my eyes, and they’re getting kind of pushy. To hold them in would be a small personal victory, and I sure would love a win, however inconsequential. But I fear, even if I hold them in today, they’ll be back again tomorrow and for all the tomorrows in the foreseeable future.

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It’s the Small Things

Usually the end of Daylight Saving Time hits when I’m asleep, but I happened to be awake and looking at my computer screen as the hour approached 2:00 a.m. last night. I watched the computer’s clock go directly from 1:59 to 1:00. It was the first time I’d ever seen the clock move backward, and it gave me a little smile.

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